wait
if you think this will burden me, i think you wrong
i found out my passion, and it will cover me
untill i reach my goal
you’re absolutely
sometimes i feel , may be the solution is simple, retired.
retired of liking someone, hope he will like me back, thats utopia, but just be honest, who does, everyone on earth, never expecting the ultimate dream, comes true?
for me, that utopia condition has just came true, i met this, you can say, for me perfect boyfriend, husband-will-be. HE IS ABSOLUTELY. he is very smart, i can say, genius, mature, i feel he can be my lead, trough this life. he is the one.
i have never give my heart to a man before, even only for try, i refuse it. i keep me from sad, or sobbing because of a man, that was, i think not my thing. that kind of feminine, or wasting energy to even think about a guy, who hurt my feeling badly. but this time, i didnt even think twice to give it to him, there was no hestitate feeling to determine, wether i gave it to him, or not.
But, i made a huge mistake, where we back to this position, which make me feel insecure about him, negative assumption consumed me.
May be, i have this weird system of comunication in my brain which i am mostly forget about the positive side of a circumstance then i rather focused on the negative side. I am find my self difficult to inform what it is actually in my heart, not usually to my other exs, but to him, the interaction seems more difficult, my mindset seems more negative. Every step, every word, seems more dangerous. I am more vulnerable than i am usually. I am absolutely feeling this feeling i prefer to avoid, as long as i live in this world, i am in love.
To talk to him, i dont know how
Suddenly i lost my ability to think, i am stupid in front of him
I dont know, wether my words would rather hurt him, make he feels disgust about me, or make he smiles.
i am afraid to know , or even to think what is going on tomorrow, everyday, after that day, i woke up in pain, thinking that may be i could spin it back at the time.
What i say was a truth, i wish i could lie to you, but i never. He got that power to rule me, what i saw, not only an exterior, or the fact that you are beauty, you are clever, you are an angel, thats not what i feel actually, i feel, comfort.
I am sorry, for loving you.
you are absolutely, the one, who took my heart away. i dont know if someone even can fill me with another heart, if it is, it must be you.
same
its okay if you wanna go
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just simple answer:
may be i’m not your type
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